Again and again

Sometimes I see you in my dreams,

Your eyes,

Your face,

Your smile,

Smirking at me in the darkness,

I feel completely alone and scared,

That I won’t be able to get out of this nightmare,

The worst part is seeing that room,

Every single bit of it I still remember,

The color and the shapes on those blankets,

The mahogany wooden bed frames,

The big table standing in the middle of the room,

Covered with children’s books and pencils,

The windows,

And the poorly fitting fly net that holds it together,

The sunlight filling up the room,

The carpet,

Even the smell of your blanket,

And the smell of your breath linger on,

Tobacco,

It’s smoky and suffocating,

I feel like I have to relive everything,

I’m watching myself let it happen,

I’m watching myself let it happen,

Again,

And again.

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